hmm, that...wasn't so hard?

177.5 this morning down 1.5 from yesterday...could just be water weight and what not... BUT a pound is a pound :] Never thought I would be so happy to see two 7's on a scale! haha.. But at the same time maybe this will be easier than I thought.... THEN AGAIN I do have a lot to lose right now lol. I would always give myself the excuse in the past that super skinny was never for me, at 180 most people would guess i was around 140ish so my body does hold it in quite well. However.....i could probably survive on water for a good month and return a normal weight lol :] BUT no, my kidneys and liver my live on! Especially from the intense 3-day weekends I put them through last year at College haha ;]

For the past 2 weeks I have been using this program called lose it on my ipod, pretty sweet app that worked for me in the past....but with little in result this time around. i was able to eat 1600 cals a day, and working out adds more that you can eat. Say you burn 300, then you eat 300. Easy enough. When I used to swim I would EASILY eat 4,000 per day and had an amazing body!! [Then again, I was swimming twice a day, once at 5:30am and then after school, while running 2 miles before the 2nd practice... hmmmmm, could this plan be in the near future? Maybe it's time to train for a triathlon summer at the pool I work at??? Might be a good plan :]

OH! and this is funny to me: My stomach is growling? I love food soooo much that it's been a while ahahaha

and one more thing, as I was laying in bed last night (well, an hour ago since I never fell asleep!) I was trying to feel my bones...my wrists are ok, my collar bone is a ahemmm, work in progress, whatever. I get to my hips, and they are buried in fat! I kid you not, I start cracking up! I have no idea why! It was just sooooo funny to me :D Like its obviously kinda gross but i'm in my skin digging for my hip bone like its burried treasure or something bahahaha, WELP! see you in a good month hip bone! bahahaha



AHHH anyways, I've just been surfing some of your amazing blogs out there, trying to get tips to lose this weight without full blown anorexia coming back. You guys have some VERY creative stuff out there! I would love to hear ideas if you have any for me :] And PLEASE don't tell me i'm a fat ass who should never eat again....though that may me true at times lmao...

BUT to finish this post up, I just want to say thanks to anyone who reads it!! Im sooo excited about this 1.5 pound drop you have no idea!!
I'll probably be posting a lot just because 1.) i'm new, it's fun. 2.) Im crazy bored with nothing to do but chill with My boy still the 18th when work starts :]

Much love
Lilah