Lake Day.

SO I'm 164.8 this morning. Fuck the what??? ok lol. I really didnt know it was possible to binge on candy and buttered popcorn then lose .2 pounds.... but whatever im not complaining. Maybe these green T pills are working? hmmmm.

So that puts me .8 up from my lowest.
And after the last like what, 2 weeks? I've been having, that really freakin excites me.
I've always been worried that once I get to my lower goal weights that I wont be able to ever eat like a normal person again, or even have slighly off days. But obviously, maintaining IS possible for me. Woot woot.

So I was planning on being like what? 159 by today?....o well.
Im still just glad im not 186 still!


OH!! btw.
So If you read my blog you know all about Brad.
Well I'll give you all a little more insight on the situation.

We started officially dating on Feb. 11, 2006.
Is was like legit in "like" with me for a whole year before that... but my friend was in love with him, and I was only like 14, so obviously I wasn't really looking for a relationship...

ANWAY things went almost perfect for the first 2 years.
I got grounded a lot for trying to spend more time with him, such as spending the night, having parties at his dads... etc.

So after a little over 2 years of almost 100% steady dating, he broke up with me. Saying he wanted a break. I was sooo pissed off, but it really was what we both needed. We were so young and had never seen anyone else, or even gone on a date with anyone else for that matter.

Long story short, we had a fucked up 2 more years together... on and off like crazy, it was horrible. We both loved each other, but we were just too immature and selfish to be able to handle it.

So my Senior year, I had sex with this guy. The main reason was to attempt to finally get over brad.... Thinking he would never forgive me. (this guy was sexy as hell by the way)
Well I eventually told him.... He was pissed.... He also found out a few months after while we were on Spring Break in Panama City... what a buzz kill.

So then We were sort of on and off all summer... He ended up having sex with 2 of his "close friends".... Im still not sure on when but it doesnt matter anymore..
So then I met his guy, I think I talked about him before.
I legit fell in love with him after a couple weeks. Ok... not love, but you know what I mean.

I told Brad I didnt love him anymore.... then we basically fell apart...

So then we officially got back together this past January.... every thing was perfect... I got bored, I was confused broke up with him, had sex with this guy I thought I really liked at school.... he found out (I told him) hhe was pissed... we didnt talk for a while... Summer started back up, I regained his trust for the last 4 months, and last night he made it official again :]
I probably sound like an ignorant bitch in this story, but you have to understand both sides....
I have never felt this sure of loving him before, and I think that we actually may be together forever.

hmmm we'll see haha.

But thats the jist of our story.
Ill tell more later.
Got to go!
Love you all
Lilah
xoxo