Stressed :(

Well I weighed in at 161.6 this morning, so not bad.
I think today is one of those days that I'll lose throughout the day.
Considering the fact that I ate nothing all day yesterday till dinner at 8:30 pm,
Im pretty sure that I still have some food weight in me.

Intake so far:
Breakfast: Cheerios with milk and blueberries: 170
Lunch: 2 rice cakes and water: 100

Total so far: 270

So if you have been reading blog you know that I went to Planned Parenthood a month ago so get tested and everything just to be safe. Well I haven't had a call back so im assuming im fine... but I was told that my $30 co-pay would cover everything, yet today I get a bill saying I owe $33... well I seriously have no money. Ok that's a lie. I do, but it's all being saved so I can pay rent with out taking out a loan.... and what makes me ever more upset is the fact that I could of just waited a month, and gotten everything tested at my normal health center and only payed the co-pay... and althought $33 may not sound like a lot... It really is.
I'm basically not letting myself spend anymore money...
I have like $800ish saved up, Brad is paying me $200 back that I lent him, and then Im STILL waiting on a $135 pay check from my old job at school... So with all that I'm around $1135 + (hopefully) around $450 more from my job this summer putting me ay $1585 to go to school with.
Rent is $329 + consumers (~20) so Im basically saved up for 4 months. not including food :/
So if I can somehow force the government to give me a bridge card, I'll have $200 in food a month.
Which is actually a lot considering the amount i'm planning on eating :) haha

Ok sorry for the ramble.
I'm just legit freaking out about everything.

Got in a fight with my dad over nothing last night and he threatened to take me off his insurance and I'll become an Independent. Which technically isnt horrible. There are pros. I mean I'm 19, I would get the bridge card no problem, more grant/loan money for school, But.... with my birth control, celexa, and inhaler... I can't really afford my meds without his insurance :/

Sooo Looks like I won't be buying any alcohol this semester haha.
Which brings me to my next point...
I also no longer have the job I was banking on having this fall and spring..
12 hours a week would give me an extra $360 a month (covering all of my rent)
so.... NEED to look for another job ASAP!

This is one of the times I am glad I do not own my own vehicle
Ahhhh sorry girls, if you have actually read this far I love you for it :)


Im hoping to weigh 160.? tomorrow. I REALLY need to get back to losing if Im going to be 155 when I move in.
It's weird because this is the weigh I always have problems losing at.

Working out tonight! Whether that's swimming, gym, or running I'm not sure yet.

SO I was lookin at pictures of tara reid... since people are all saying how anorexic she is now... what do you all think?? CLICKY The one at the top looks veryyy skinnny. but I really don't think she looks extremely skinny in the rest... IDK
Paris hilton on the other hand is looking crazy skinny!! CLICKY!
I think she pulls it off well, but at times... I think it may have gone a little too far :/

WOW well that's my celeb gossip for the day haha....

Off to read blogs :D

Love you all
Lilah