Hi Ya'll

Hey girls,
Hope everyone is have an amazing September :)
Not much new here, that's why I havent really been posting.
I've been maintaining at around 154.2-155.6 ish. it all depends on the day, but i'm kind of ok with that for now.
I've been trying to eat all of the "bad food" that's mine in my house, so I can clear it all out... I mean, nothing too bad lol. Just like yogurt covered rasins, the rest of my turkey ( Im trying to cut out meat) and just random shit....

I want to hit 153 soon, but starving myself jsut CAN NOT happen right now.
My schedule consists of:
5:20- wake up
5:30-shower/get ready
6:15- leave for bus
6:30-get on bus
6:50- arrive at campus/ walk to work
7:00 -work
10:30 - leave work
11:00- art class
12:15- study at library
2:00- Bio
3:30- Ab psych
5:00 or 5:30 catch bus at either time
get home around 5:30-6:00ish
then do whatever....

That is tues and thurs at least... its crazy though, and I NEED food to stay awake and focused.
Im maintaining though, which actually does pump me up...

Today I went to the MSU vs.FAU football game at ford field with Brad nad his room mate nad best friend... it was fun. I met up with my parents there and they were sooo happy to see me, which was nice.

I met a new friend at work, she's cool... my problem is, I like set up this wall where I can never get super close to girls, as in like best friend status haha...

Were going to a white trash party tonight lmao... like that is the legit theme...
I'll hopefully be posting pictures!

Ummmmm... I'm not really sure what else is goin on in my life! haha...
Just really bust and always doing stuff...

Today on the car ride to the game Brad was saying something about taking a party bus to a hockey game, or something, but its a mans night blah blah... and I said well I can be a man too haha... and his friend was like, well then you have to paint your whole body with us. I said yeah, if I can lose 20 pounds by then. And his friend was like uhhh, you'll be a skeleton and very unattractive if that's what you want? ha.... then everyone decided ( not inculding me ) that I look perfect and should or can lose 5 more pounds max.... funny.

He's friend also told me that he knew me before brad and him met, and that he thought I was hot haha... oh, and this is also the friend that we kind of semi had a little sexual incident with... basically us 4 were wasted, Brad and I had sex like right next to him and his gf having sex... I barely remember it, but it's like this stupid "4some joke" so that makes thing awkward... but he drives a 2011 Mustang... so the ride was fun... very crammed, but fun..

UGG I feel so boring haha.. I'm such a nerd now, all I want to do is learn lol...

But I really just want to hit 149, and I'm thinking i'll be semi happy, not that I want to stop there, but I will be a lot more content..
I'm sick of hanging out with people who are smaller than me....
and seeing girls who are.
Wow, talk about insecurities... pathetic...ehh, I guess we all have them here right?

o well.
I'll try and post later.
Love you all
Lilah