I want to die right now.
I am doing everything it takes to not OD on pills or cut myself.
I cheated on Brad last night...
he found out... duh.
We're over...
thatwas like strike 3 for me.
I think I have BPD.
Im a legit fuck up.
It was one of hte twins too....
not my close friend but his brother...
I don't even know what I was thinking.....
I not babysitting tinight... Im locking myself up.
Im onot eating till I pass out.
I may still meet up with that guy... we'll see.
Im so fucked up right now, I'll probably just end up fucking him.
I hate myself.
I got back down to 163.4... I dont know what I am today.
I dont even care.
I just want to die right now....
If I didnt believe in the Lord I would be far gone....
I'm sorry. Maybe you and Brad weren't right for each other.
ReplyDeleteThis gives you many more open doors, and you should just leave the one you just closed behind.
Just focus on yourself and loving who you are, and who you can be..
Your young, and beautiful and should explore whats out there. Don't hate yourself, just take this as a chance to find yourself and get to know yourself a bit better.
ReplyDeleteDon't stress hun, what's meant to be, will always find it's way. <3
I thought you two were breaking up anyway?
ReplyDeleteDon't be so down. Like all things...this too shall pass.