drastic measures.

I'm starving again.

Finally.

The will power is back.

And all it took was a druken night and a few pictures to do it.

and maybe a talk from a new, good friend.

I am fat right now. 

My jeans are getting tight.

So far today I had a greek yogurt:100 cals

and I want it to stay that way for a little while.

My stomach is growling.

It's awesome

It has seriously been so long since i've had that feeling.

No more fast food.

No more high calorie bull shit.

God it feels good to be back.

So last night I got drunk with emily... I will be posting pics and videos later... they are so rediculous... but whatever.

We decided were getting tattoos together.

What we decided on was my idea.

Forever Young <3

simple... I love it.

Judge away lol.

But were going to get it under the curve of our boob lol.

I am wayy too excited.

So we went over to Brad and Joes....

Joe was a complete ass.

He had class so I guess I understand but still....

I ate a piece of cereal out of his bowl.... then when he added milk I went to grab one and he like ripped the bowl away and was like, serisouly?? get your hands out of my food.. and threw an empty bowl at me? Where the fuck did that come from? I looked him in the eye and was like "You'll let me suck your dick and then kiss you.... but not touch your food. what the fuck man" LMAO. his roommate was rollin.

But I had a real nice talk with his roommate nad I love him lol.

and he helped me out a lot with thinking... He dated his ex for 5 years.... she is gorgeous.. and was bigger but lost a lot of weight... and I guess lost a shit ton when she got of off birth control.... Brad was saying that it basically can make you gain weight in your hips ass and stomach like crazy.... which is what happens to be... so good bye birth control. lol

Im not having sex anymore anyways lol.

Basically.... Brad (this is joes roommate Brad BTW) was saying that I came on too strong... lol NO WAY haha... I think that I forgot that people actually can go slow... ahaha... o well.

Joe is kinda boring.... and Im not sure why I like him? Or why I did? lmao.... like I think its just the challenge and that i'm physically attracted to him... but whatevess that ship has sailed and I just want to be good friends hahaha.

So on to restricting!! :D Im so pumped! hahah.... so basically... Im making miso soup before I babysit... 35 cals ( I NEED MORE OF THIS SHIT!! )

an apple: 70ish?

total so far:205

then dinner will be my frozen bag of brocolli! so whatever that is?

and then.... idk maybe a piece of cheese: 35?

I dont know... I just am soooo happy that I will be getting skinny again!

I'm sick of saying that I used to weight 102.... and that I was a size 00.... although I know that wont happen since i'm taller now haha by like 5 inches... it can at least be a goal!

O and BTW not getting on the scale for a while... ahaha I'm thinking Wednesday?

Well I haven't gone to bed yet and it's 11:30am... so night girls :D

I PROMISE to read blogs tonight :)

Kels