I feel so empty.
I have no one to turn to.
Like legit no one I can call or go see in Kalamazoo.
I can talk to brad.... but I hurt him so much already.
Im talking to him... all I want is to be in love again....with brad.
I hate hate hate this.
It's a big mess.
I know I oculd find someone who would treat me better... well maybe idk.
but I doubt he would even take me back... I dont even know what the hell im saying... im basically have a panic attack and my head hurts sooo bad.
I went to my friends for dinner.... they made the cheese spinach casserole with noodle... nad I had a cupcake... fml... but at least i ate good earlier.
idek.
I talked to joe this morning... and I was like we should talk later... and he was like, I agree!
so i'm waiting for him to initiate any talk lol... I just wnat him as a friend... it's weird, like I could easily live with never seeing him again... but brad... if I never saw him again I would die.
I guess 5 years will do that to ya.
ugggg. hello 2am.
Im a hot mess.
I just want to be skinny... but I ate too much after my last post... the stuff I ate here was healthy... but then I went over there.... ger.
O well. I'll be working out everyday next week and hopefully now that i'm stopping BC I will lose fast.
Night ladies.
You all make me so proud.
I promise to make you proud soon.
Sorry you are having a rough time with some stuff. If you ever need someone to vent to, you can email or text me. I hope today is better! <3
ReplyDeleteHey sorry you had a rough day. After 5 years in a relationship it must be really tough to be single! Different at the very least. You will get it together!! Keep truckin'. Ok so the BC thing, its not like I went off it and magically dropped 10 pounds BUT when I was on it I would diet/exercise and not lose anything, now when I put in the work I get results. But pretty much I'm 15 pounds lighter now then when I took it and even if I binge I don't gain a ton of weight right away. So yeah!
ReplyDeleteThings will start to get better soon...you'll see.
ReplyDeleteahh! sorry girl! I hope all your boy issues work themselves out. Id offer some more advice, but I dont know those guys --at all--to try and tell what would be the best move.
ReplyDeletewe are all in this--stay strong love!