So I drove to Michigan State...
Got drunk with my Best friends.
And ended up Fucking Jim again.
Wow.
I really need to get my shit together.
umm so Jim shows up at the party, we start talking, he putting his arm around me and keeps touchin me and what not haha.... funny ass night.
At least my numbers didn't go up right???
Jim is the kind of guy that you want to hang out with drunk... he's just more fun that way.
My friend Jake, you want to hang out with sober because he has this cute little shyness about him that totally goes away when he drinks.
Brad is either/or
Joe. I would love to see him drunk.
What am I doing with my life girls?
I have ate fastfood 4 times.
last night.
yesterday ay 2am
this morning
and for dinner.
i prob gained 5 pounds.
not getting on the scale.
But who the fuck cares if im fat.
I'm never going to get a guy anyways.
Fuck it.
Ok Update.
So I don't want to emotionally eat anymore.
I want to get hot.
and then I want to deny every guy who has ever hurt me.
Like I said.
I have until the 2nd week of January to look hot.
Meaning:
Hair cut
Tanner
less than 154
nails
whiter teeth
anything else.
I need to run more.
at least 5 times a week will be the goal for tomorrow.
I refuse to text Joe.
unless he texts me first.
I'm not inviting him to do things or hang out.
it's 100% him now.
if nothing happens, then nothing happens.
IDRGAF.
It's not like I'm going to marry him or anything.
I'm going to marry someone who loves me more than I do.
Or just be a cat lady.
Fuck. It.
Ok Update.
So I don't want to emotionally eat anymore.
I want to get hot.
and then I want to deny every guy who has ever hurt me.
Like I said.
I have until the 2nd week of January to look hot.
Meaning:
Hair cut
Tanner
less than 154
nails
whiter teeth
anything else.
I need to run more.
at least 5 times a week will be the goal for tomorrow.
I refuse to text Joe.
unless he texts me first.
I'm not inviting him to do things or hang out.
it's 100% him now.
if nothing happens, then nothing happens.
IDRGAF.
It's not like I'm going to marry him or anything.
I'm going to marry someone who loves me more than I do.
Or just be a cat lady.
Fuck. It.
Sorry to hear that. Don't take it too hard, and view this as a way to focus on yourself. You can do it! It's a good motivator to find a great guy you deserve in the future.
ReplyDeleteis that an iphone? its cute.
ReplyDeleteback to the issue. that sucks about joe, but at least you know now that if he does want to be with you, he wants it to be serious, and not some random hookup! he just wants his wild oats to sow, i guess. so congrats--cuz I think he really likes you even though you may not see it!
ahh sorry about jim. and the fast food. but monday is coming (shit) and we all have to detox and whatever, and I am sure jim is not stressing it.
you should text joe though--just not as much and kinda friendly ish. I think he will appreciate you staying around as a friend.
anyway, hope everything improves! loveesss ya!!!