But I felt the need to post again lol.
I'm about 95% Sure I have histronic personality disorder... it would just make sense.
It would explain a lot.
I've always thought that I had some symptoms... but now that I've been analyzing myself more... Im noticing more and more things about it that would just answer some of my issues.
Symptoms.
- Is uncomfortable in situations in which he or she is not the center of attention
- Interaction with others is often characterized by inappropriate sexually seductive or provocative behavior
- Displays rapidly shifting and shallow expression of emotions
- Consistently uses physical appearance to draw attention to themself
- Has a style of speech that is excessively impressionistic and lacking in detail
- Shows self-dramatization, theatricality, and exaggerated expression of emotion
- Is highly suggestible, i.e., easily influenced by others or circumstances
- Considers relationships to be more intimate than they actually are. this is my life...
There are more things... such as low self esteem and what not... which I obvi have...
Idek... I dont want to add another disorder to my list lol.
I know i'm not a hypochondriac lol...
well I dont want to eat... I had veggies for my food from 5:30 till 2:00 and I fel like I was going to pass out... then I freak out and think I need to eat... then eat too much.... Oh and some fruit too tho...
so we'll see.
I just dont want it to touch me.
like what is wrong with me?
With us?
We should be out living our lives... not obsessing with this shit.
I'm not even losing weight... I've gained 11 pounds from september.... I need to either get my shit together again... or I will go crazy. all of this freaking out about food and then binging and blah blah blah has lead to nothing.
O well.
I love you girls so much.
I'm reading every post that is added starting now :)
Kels.
hope you feel better love, and I am glad to hear that I am not the only one who admits that we should be living our lives instead of worrying about our stupid weights.
ReplyDeletejust so you know, Ive always thought you were one of the prettiest girls I have seen, regardless of your weight. you have such a gorgeous face :)
I do often marvel at how much of my life I am wasting away obsessing about how much a scale says I weigh.
ReplyDeleteHistrionic, eh? Sounds like a party to me! :D
Hope you have a wonderful night, hun!
xoxo
Yeah, we are really wasting years...
ReplyDeleteDon´t get caught up in lavels sweetie, it just makes you feel worst.
xx