New healthy approach?

Just finished P90X :)

Didn't do it yesterday due to the fact that our DVD player is broken... didnt even think about doing it on my Mac... until today! So I did it.

Supposedly is burns around 600 cals?

so yay for that!

It's actually 5pm and I haven't ate any thing... however, let's discuss yesterdays food.

I wasn't going to go into detail, but if I embarass myself enough then hopefully it wont happen again!

I was with Emily and we ALWAYS eat shit tons together....

Breakfast:

honey nut cherrios and milk... thinking that it will start me off on a good day...

then we eat Taco bell.... not once, twice?? the 2nd time we split cheesy fiesta potatoes... but still...

a donut? from this AMAZING place they just HAD to take me to lol

a reeses that her mom bought us?.... umm what else...

OH we had to go to subway to stalk her ex... so that was 1.5 cookies...

then we bought a frozen digornio pizza... ate 1/4 of the pizza and some bread sticks....

I feel like we ate more.... oh a few runts...

yea, we're lookin at 3000 EASILY. fuck

so we're past that.

Im going to eat 2 egg whites: 32 cals

and yogurt: 45

then maybe a tiny bit more later...

The P90X instructional dude kept stressing the importance of calorie intake...blah blah... make sure you eat enough food.. I was thinking, well I think yesterday basically covers the whole week! haha....

anyway.... I want to be healthy, Im sick of this starve/binge starve/binge game I keep playing with myself.

Im going to try to keep cals very low in the next few days... obvi christmas will be tough, but I need to be in the 150's by New Years eve.

I'm soooo scared to step on the scale.

The fact that I'm in the 160's is scary enough on its own....

2011 is going to be a great year.

sure I may say this every december.

But I actually want to make the best of it!

we are only young once,

I want to look back at this time of my life knowing that I had fun, and did not stress out too much... , and that I looked my best.

Right now.  I have never felt so blubbery in my lifeee... I know that at 186 I must have been worse off.... but it is just grossing me out! and I have also decided that instead of sulking aound on my butt all day, I will do something productive, ie. working out. ie. NOT eating :)

Resolutions are coming soon.  And I am planning on them being excellent!

oh BTW.

Look what I come home to:

lol... noooo thank you! I'm not even going to THINK about the possibility of even tasting them....

gerrrr.

Alright ladies, hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday!

Off to make some eggs!

Love you all.

Kels


Update!
Eggs were gross? I microwaved them lmao.... never again... not even worth the few calories that they are... some of it exploded in the micro... so I guess thats less cals? haha...
Got on the scale! 163.8! so im only .6 up! thank the lord...
why does my stomach feel like a spare tire? Probably because it is! but for real.... it never feels this big at 163!  Maybe im just nasty and bloated from stoping birth control and my body is confused? lol... who knows...


OH! I am taking those green tea diet pills again...
I will let you know if I think they do anything... which they probably wont? lol.... well even if they do it will be hard to tell....


Love you alllllll!