So I took another nap

Intake for the day: 170+
a shit ton of watermelon. Which is supposed to be negative cals. and 92% water anway... so whatever.
then 2 dinner rolls... I love them tooo much so when we have them... Im gonna eat a few... so I have no idea the cal/val for those but I'm gonna say that I'm @ around 550ish today? not bad :)

I'm thinking about doing the master cleanse... I have the stuff... it's just the will power now.

or maybe a negative cal food diet... idk.

I just really want to be smaller.

I also think I'm in love with my boyfriend.
it's weird to me.

But that's kinda why I want to get smaller too. it's like I want to make him happier lol. But at the same time, I know that doesnt matter to him... he obviously wouldnt have started dating me if he thought I was fat... I guess.

but he's 155ish, so.. I wantto be 154 again... he's been lifting so he'll probably gain some weight.. and I'm pretty sure when we were drunk once it sadi 151 on the scale but he totally denied it. The funny thing is that he isnt that small looking....

but then again... look at his boney shoulders next to my bloated ass face.. I hate that beer does that to me.

anywho... no mater what happens this week, I vow to remain under 1000 cals a day and to workout more!!

<3