I know...

I keep fading in and out...
not much has really changed here.

I've just been chillin with my bf a lot.. and I actually think I sincerely love him... I don't even think, I know this....  it's crazy.

My ex, wouldn't let me hold his phone, ley alone put a password lock on it... but this guy, told me to look... ahaha and I did and it was actually funny and boring... the worst I got was some super old sappy facebook messages ahaha but I'm not gonna do that again... it's weird. and I actually have trust in this relationship and don't want to fuck that up.

This last week I've basically been eating and drinking like it's my job,
I am up north with family and the boy after all...

But come monday, this sha'll change. I'm turning 20 on thursday... and my bday party is in 2 weeks. I would absolutely love to just tone it up a bit and maybe drop 5 pounds by then... we will see.
I really just need to start swimming so that when I am ok'd to run again it will be easier to get back into.

gahhh.
I really want august to be a good focus month tho.
I'm also moving out of my apartment and into a town house with very athletic people, 5/6 of us swim.. and a few run and eat healthy so it shouldn't be too hard.

well I'm just babeling...

I'll keep ya'll posted on my boring ass life.