A Diamond in the Rough

LOL!

alright I just HAD to get on here and talk about my day... those who have been reading will remember about the terrible oil spill?? No, not in the Gulf of mexico...in my van.
SO! After may day has the whole lecture about how he is sick of paying of things that could be preventable blah blah blah..... himm I bet BP is thinking that too right now... they're probably pissed as well that their daughters didn't fix the damn thing...I wonder if they blame them too? lmao i'm just messin....

...Anyhow!! So today I go out to the van, Lestoil in hand with bucket and rags... Cleaning this spot that I can't even see anymore?? haha...sure the gas stench is still partially present... but that would be gone in a day....Whatever, I get to scrubin this invisible spot....it's kinda fun..I dont even know why lol. But when I go to rinse it, it just suds up even worse lol... So now i'm washing this damn carpet that had no stain to begin with, now smells 100x worse from the lestoil, and looks worse. LOL like i just can't help from laughing through this whole incident!!...haha but even i finish, what ev... Life goes on, back to cleaning my hell hole of a room!

Ok, food time. Breakfast: 155 cals + grapes cause my head hurt sooo damn bad, at first I felt guilty, and then I was like umm WAKE UP its fruit ya loser lol But that was it... Then, this may disgust you, idk... I chewed and spit a piece of chocolate... I don't even know why, it just sounded good... and like I said before...I don't want to make my self puke, been there done that a few years ago...it's horrible. So I have this little "fun" size bar of dark Hershey chocolate and im just chewing on it, and then spit it out. idk, sounds good to me, tasted amazing, and I actually felt full after?? So then I look it up, 67 calories. bahahaha thats it? Probably could of just eaten it but I really want to be on a health food only type thing...haha and during this whole spit thing my mom walks by so I swallow it a bit, like seriously probs 5 cals of it since it was so diluted with spit and wayy at the end...but this just cracks me up....WHY did I do that?? ehh o well...

Lunch time soon, hmmm what should I eat?? ...im feelin some carrots, maybe a few pieces of ham, bought some of the 35 cals a slice bread but I think I left it at Brads appt.... which BTW his mom couldnt pay rent on... So basically, all this work he was been putting into painting all summer, is now going to his mom... for being a dumb, selfish bitch. Dont get me wrong, I love her, shes been through a lot... but who needs Nails, Hair, New clothes from Buckle, alcohol, tanner...it goes on, when you can pay rent?? Ahhh it kills me! (he lives with his mom for the summer btw...it's not like, she's paying for HIS appt.)

gahh ADD! lol but yea...Todays gonna be good with the food, I just know it.... Hopefully I can continue restricting this well... usually I do for a while and then the intense hunger comes back and I just cant take it...

Whateverrr
thanks for reading sooo much :]
Lilahhhhh