A Diamond in the Rough

KAY! so...today was prettty good.

Breakfast:
Special K with milk: 155
snack:
Grapes: ~40 cals i'll say 50 to be safe

Lunch:
10 Carrots with mustard (sounds weird but mustard is 0 cals, and it mixes things up a bit): I guess each carrot is 4 so 40 cals?? I thought it was less tho lol

Piece of gum: 5 cals

Dinner:
Wendys mandarin salad: 425 after switching and halving a ff ranch packet

Total: 675 :/
well..I guess its not bad

Oh, and not that you guys care to know, but I just got my period...BUT period, is ALWAYS better than no period :] Unless you want to have a baby lol. Which I CANT wait to some day lol, but not at 19. Anyway..I usually binge my way through my period eating things in the past such as: whole bag of chex mix:450 cals... seriously, just grabbing a bag of chips and eating it till its gone...shit like that. SO hopefully I can get though this week with out that.

Tonight I was supposed to go to The Outback Steakhouse with Brad, but stuff came up with his mom, and then we found out that it closed at 10 after we already had a late start.. So that didnt happen. And to make matter worse we had to pick up his moms friends daughter who works at Wendys. Not a big deal but if Wendys is my favorite food everrrr. When i swam I was addicted to 5 piece nug in honey mustard, med fry, med frosty:12oo cals!!! damn... I just looked it up ahahahaha

So I end up getting the Mandarin Chicken salad, usually I half the side and the dressing, but I jst love the sides so I got ff ranch instead and halfed that: totaling 425..which I guess itsnt too bad but I also ate it at 10:45 at night ahaaa...BUT when I look at the fact that it's a 3rd of what I used to eat....it makes me feel a lot better haha :]

So, weigh in tomorrow...uhhh hmmm, not sure If its gonna happen! lol Period + late night eating = possibility of a weight gain, which I just don't really want to see....

But if you guys know me at all by now, you'll know I WILL weigh myself lol

So, at least I have something to blame lol. I''m just pumped for AFTER this week, since the bloating will go wayyy down and i'll actually, hopefully be able to see the 8 pounds difference... and hopefully FIT INTO MY DAMN JEANS. LOL My 8 Long, skinnys from American Eagle, wouldn't go above my knees today?? wtf... I lost 8 pounds, yet they fit me when I was heavier in the past?? lol.. True I guess I did dry them in the dryer before i went to myrtle Beach a few weeks ago and haven't tried then on since... so, I guess that's gotta be it. Something else to look forward to I guess!!

So, do any of you ever feel like, I don't want to say people are out to get you lol, but like they keep saying stuff refering to hot fat you got? Cause this shit KEEPS happening to me.
FOR EXAMPLE: Today, fighting with my almost 17 year old sister, becasue she was yelling at my mom for not doing her laundry?? LOL! she's 17?? anyway so that made me mad, and I was like dont you dare touch my clothes!! I just washed them and hate when she wear my clean clothes lol... we used to be the same size in everything except I was long in pants...anyway, she brings down clothes to wear and I go is that my tank top? and shes like no... so im like really?? And shes like yea, its a size small. So im like cool...all mine are meds, hers are mixed sm and md... so obviously she didn't mean to be a bitch but how she said it was like woahhh.... what ev...

OK so I know this sounds dumb... but I really want to weigh less that my mom and sis again... but since I have 5 inches on my sis and 3 on my mom, i figured BMI would be a better way to place a good weight for me... especially since we have the same genes so It should be an okay wat to tell.

Mom: 5'6'' 148 pounds
Sis: 5'4'' or 5'5'' 147-148 pounds
Me:5'9'' 174 pounds
So if I ever get to the 140's Ill be lookin sexxy haha

any ways... BMI!
Mom:23.9-24
Sis: 24.5-25.1 ish
Me:25.7

25= over weight
24.9= normal
i'm soooo close, well 5 pounds haha

So i'm actually a whole lot better off than i thought :]
I want to look like my mom so if I get down to 162 ill actually feel good about myself :]
BUT goal BMI is 20 so If I can get down to 135.5 i will Love myself and my body Finally and that just doesnt seem too low to me at all...I really think I may me able to pull this one off! I do have a knid of muscular/bigger built tho... so we'll see I'd have to get down to 125 to be considered under weight... but i'm not even sure thats what I want.
I don't want to attract the wrong kind of attention, I just want people to be like wow, she got hot again. hahaha

SO!! I appreciate you guys reading my blogs of life ( more like books of life ) hahaha and Keep writing!!! If i'm following you, i'm reading every word of your posts and love it!!! Basically, I only follow people I continue reading lol


WELP! Ill talk to you guys after mornig weigh in.... don't expect much kay?? haha i really did try and was under 800 cals, even 700... so thats awesome for me!! but...i'm just worried about eating so late and my period. So far i have lost every day since I started this on Saturday... damn, it hasnt even been a week!!! shit, I feel like i've been writing on here for years!!

But yessss.

I will see ya'll later :]

xoxoxo Lilah Lee =)