Mixed feelings AGAIN! lol

Alright, so my alarm clock never went off AGAIN unless im just THAT tired and turned it off in my sleep lol. But Im proud to say that I got a whole 11 hours in?!?! lol.. I mean I was just asking for eight! haha...but i'm just glad I FINALLY was able to sleep a whole night haha So 170.5 this mornin!!? lol I'm realllly happy but at the same time feel really sick and I think its just due to the fact that I lost 11 pounds in a week lol. So Im trying to eat more food today just to get my energy back up, and so I don't like pass out. Especially since I have to Babysit and the dad is in social work and psychology stuff, so im pretty sure he would know if I pass out on the job what that means hahaha? lol haha... anyway! So I ate a banana and now im eating whole grain toast with 0 cal spray butter AND IT DOESNT EVEN TASTE GOOD!!! WTF MATE?? lol so Then I put jelly on it AND I STILL DONT LIKE IT haha. Maybe its because I cut out bread for a whole week? and I usually eat it every day? ahahaha And also, I keep waking up in the middle of the night feeling my chin and jaw bone?? lol wtf?? hahaha What was I dreaming about?? But I think my period is amost done and thats why I finally lost the bloating weight!! haha but also, this morning I Keep feeling like I need to pee! Or like I need to pee more and it kind of hurts!! Like Ive had this happen before so im not tooo worried I just really hope I dont have a UTI ewww, well not eww but I just dont want to have to get tested and stuff lol. And guys this project of mine might not be getting done for awhile :/ I need a little bit more supplies and Im pretty busy this weekend with babysitter/open house/ and nascar race haha BUT I PROMISE IT WILL BE WORTH WAITING!!! Ok, so im just gonna throw a few pics up so you guys can get a better idea of my life? maybe haha and my weight changes? haha it REALLY up and down as you will see lol









This is Brad and be back in January on his Birthday, I got down to around 160ish at this time















Me and one of my best friends Connor back at school, this was I think at around my highest weight, but also I didnt take a lot of pics when I was my absolute highest so this is the best I can do haha, but you can see the difference in my face















Me back in september?? right before I Blew up hahaha

















Me and my second roomate amanda, I freaking love her! Pretty sure we're drunk here haha...actually, about 100% sure lol













Me back when I swam!! freshman year :] I had a lot of muscle so I really liked that haha












Me and my roomate...again...drunk lol













Me playing this fishing shot glass drinking game? haha... I started to gain weight again lol you can tell a tiny bit in my face and arms













Me and my sis like 2 summers ago when we went to Niagra falls :]














My dad and I when he came up to visit me and tailgate at college :] I think this was my highest weight? I'm not quite sure tho, it may have been more ( im suckin in btw lol I always do in pics haha) I was at least 180 somehting here













Me in January at 158, my lowest alll year I lost 27 pounds since october.November ish My highest I got to was 186... actually this may have been new years? I look drunk haha













Me back in December at mt aunts wedding trying to eat healthy hahaha











Brad Kaelyn and me in January, close to my lowest before I gained most if it back again lol












Towards the start of college around my highestish, my first room mate on the left and "neighbor" (we lived in dorms haha) in the middle










Last summer before I got my first tattoo, obviously sucking in lol, but still pretty good weight haha













Me last summer with some franssss pre freshman 15... or 30 hahahhaa













Back in summer 08 right before senor year high school
















Towards the end of senior year? Got down to a normal weight for me again... still thought I was fat lol, but now I would love to look like that again! haha














Me visiting brad at college in mid november, lost a little weight from my highest. Trying to be a model bahahahha maybe Ill actually knock enough weight off and go back and take another one hahaa









Alright! I hope you guys got to know me a little bit better, I swear Im not always drunk hahaha But yeah!! i'm sooo pround of you all putting pics up so we can really get to know each other and put a face to who we're talking too!!

Well ill let you all know how babysittin goes later of course, i'm sure it will go great (fingers crossed) it usually always does, I think the worst I had was one of the kids had a nose bleed, and then the police called once and said they had a hang up call from the house...that was really weird and i dont think the kids would do it either hahaha... but luckily the parents are really great people and didnt freak out about it or anything. Also they have really healthy food so if I get hungry there I'll be good :] Well... ill probably have to make dinner for the kids (either 1 will be there or 3) they have twins that are from a previous marriage so they aren't always there

Talk to ya'll later!! Stay strong and positive :D :D :D and drink lots of water! haha

Love Lilah


Ps is EVERYONE on blogger on their period or what? haha