I worked for my neighbor and they had Jimmy Johns and he offered me some so of course I ate it. It was a veggie one so no biggie at all. Also I had a few pretzels and a few chips in salsa, because people kept telling me to try stuff lol. The salsa was the shit though. It had pineapple in it???
THEN when I got home, my parents had just grilled salmon. SO I ate some of that, and a few pieces of salad. I really don't think all of that was over 500 cals tho. So my day is pretty much 822 plus whatever ever gum I ate. I'm not sure if im going to count gum anymore.. It seems silly.
So brad's friend came home from the marines. he's a cool guy and stuff but I HATE when Brad starts hanging around him too much... also, I always feel self conscious around him for some reason. Ill post a picture to show you why:
This was before boot camp....
ANYWAY... I just feel like a fat ass next to him lol
Bringing me to the subject of tomorrow... one of my old best friends that I've known for 11 years. she is tinyyyy she always has been, and also has amazing boobs.. and i also always feel like a fat ass next to her lol. Let me show you her as well lol:
Shes beautiful... size zero... 103 pounds... lol
Married to brads best friend.. (we hooked them up forever ago lol)
Which brings me to saturday...I will be partyin with my best friend Kara, She's like 1.5 years younger than me but we swam together forever.
She is also tiny as hell, she had a groing problem where one of her boobs didnt grow so she got fake boobs... heres Kara and me.
SO basically...I have an extremely self conscious weekend ahead of me...
WELL I hoped you all enjoyed learning more about me... lol
Why are all of my friends so attractive? Not that its bad... lol. BUT STILL. CAN I PLEASE BE SKINNY AGAIN.
Water is gold.
It's my new best friend.
It will make me happy.
And my stomach trim.
LOL AT MY POEM BAHAHAHA
BUT for real... Water and gum... and then some food so I don't die.
I'm showing those who doubted me... those who made fun of me... thought they were better....
I will win. It's all up to me.
If I fail, it's only my fault.
Therefore... I will succeed.
I WILL weigh 135 pounds again...
It's not a question anymore...
it WILL happen
Love you all
Have a fabulous night
Love, Lilah.
PS. I really want to do a vlog (aka video blog) but im going to wait till i hit 159..kind of a reward and also I will look better on camera haha
NIGHT!
Update: basically im a dumb ass lol... When I was taking my measurements I was measuring th circumference right below my boobs... well I was told that you are actually supposed to measure over your boobs...so... My measurements are fucked. lol
Next week ill add that in haha... I really have no idea what im doing...
You ate well so thats all good Lilah Lee :)
ReplyDeleteI hate that feeling too! - when you are surround by skinny skinny's I always feel the fat one in a crowd and its a really horrible feeling isn't it!
....Like sometimes I'm that paranoid I find myself not wanting to join in...go out...socialise I soppose...it sucks!
But we are going to turn that all around this year arn't we my beauty
Stay strong I believe in you
loads & loads of love your pal,
Wilted~Rose
P.S you look FANTASTIC in your pic :) x
your doing really good job!
ReplyDeleteand that picture.. i can't see the difference between you guys!? :D yoru stunning