Work was, well... slow and painful today... literally, I am SO sun burnt it's not even normal right now. I basically look like a football player with black war paint under my eyes... except its bright red, and peeling.
SO todays eating went ALMOST as planned.
Some one brought god dammed doughnuts into work...
BUT luckily they were only doughnut HOLES so I ate 3... im thinkin like 200 cals ishhhh which is sooo much better than what the old me would eat... 6,7,8?
ALSO ate a banana during work for energy... so I ended up adding about 300 extra cals in altogether :/
I think I probably was around 1000ish today :/
However I did swim 1000 yards, which isn't as much as I wanted but still better than the alternate... sitting/taking a nap lol
So I teach a total of 4 swim lessons every day. They all go pretty fine, except my parent tot class... It's so awkward for me.
I've done it for 3 years now.... and I just can't learn to love it....
My voice is gone... So I can't sing. The other girl who teaches it, who I think is horrible at other levels, is actually REALLY good at it... and I don't understand why they don't just have her do both sessions... whatever, I guess I cant be that bad then... BUT STILL. I need more ideas ASAP!... and my voice back would be nice. Im PRAYING we get rained out tomorrow. Im going to school on Friday ( which is our make up lesson day) for a job interview/application type thing... for lifeguarding up there, which would really be the best job option for me lol. If not.... I have a weird joy in making sandwhiches... worked at the caf last year, subway this year? lol
SO eating plan tomorrow:
Im gonna REALLY try and not over eat..
Breakfast:
2 scrambled eggs. 167
5 pancakes: 400
8 slices of bacon: 295
2 cups of OJ:200
small blueberry muffin: 200
Total:1262
Lunch
3 turkey sandwhiches
bread: 420
cheese: 300
turkey: 221
pudding cup: 120
Total: 1061
Dinner:
Dominos:
4 slices of pizza: 1415
5 breadsticks: 585
ranch dressing:150
Total:2150
Total:4473
hmm a little over... but whatever...
JUST KIDDING... if its not obvious... im starving right now.... and those are some of my favorite foods... how grosss... that was basically what I ate when I swam all the time... fuck. my. life.
PLEASE give me the power to not go downstairs and binge....
ok... so my actually fucking plan of food:
Breakfast:
oatmeal
blue berries
almonds
188.75
snack...
100 cals of something... may skip this
Lunch:
200 cals of combined turkey, mustard..some veggies
snack:
100.... maybe 150
Dinner:
200 ish cals of whatever.....
Total 800...
I iwsh words could describe how bad I want to drive to taco bell right now... or McDonalds in the morning....
UGGGGGGGGGG PIZZA.
ok. im done freaking out, promise.
I think AFTER i hit 165... my June goal, Im going to eat pizza... lol, or something. taco bell? As much as I want to eat them on my free day, Im WAY to0 scared to fuck up right now... I NEED TO HIT 165. 8 weigh ins left. I already told my self no alcohol this weekend. Im limiting myself to two times a month... I have to.
have any of you had this problem?? Weighing a higher weight, restricting..... and nothing??... I would understand if I weighed like 115 and this was happening... but no... Any tips?? Should I restrict more???
Im really thinking of starting the oatmeal diet on Monday, I think it would be a good day to start.
Also? What oatmeal do you guys eat? mine is 140 for 1/2 cup of oats.. which jsut seems high to me I guess
I hope you all are doing great.
Its 1:48 am and I slept from 9-12 ish... so of course im wide awake now thinking of food... going to be popping the gum in a sec...
Hopped on the scale like 30 mins ago... 1 fucking 70... ewwww. I was hoping for 168 in the morn.
Girls I really need your support more that ever right now... I feel so close to giving up, I mean I know I won't in the end... but my overpowering love for food is slowly creeping its way back into my life...
Cutting Fast food out is a lot harder than I ever imagined...and it doesnt help when people at work and my sis are constantly eating it.... BUT I will look amazing in the end.
I just don't understand why I eat no more than 800-1000 cals a day... and still dont lose...
It makes absolutely no sense to me what-so-ever....
FINALLY FINISHED SKINNY!
now on too.... Wasted.
I think im THE LAST person out there to read it lol...
ALRIGHT, so im debating about switching to my other scale, the one I told you guys was a little bit off?
well, It goes my .2 instead of .5... and I REALLY want a more accurate reading... so I may post both??? idek.. I hate not knowing the EXACT reading....
Alright girls, im out for the night, hope to hear from everyone soon I feel like It's been a while :/
Last though of the night.
Check out this web page:
9 Healthy On-the-Go Snacks
They look AMAZING to me.... great ideas that maybe we can use to switch things up? However... most of them are around 200 cals. So we might be making these snacks, more like meals?? haha
Also came across this forum: http://caloriecount.about.com/very-low-calorie-snacks-ft19593
Love the ideas :)
Love all of you :D
can't wait to read everyones updates tomorrow :]
Love
Lilah
oh sweety don't give up! is there a way you can change you diet? i feel if i eat certain foods i have more control, like if i only allow myself to have rice cakes, soup, dark chocolate, etc. u know? and then if i fail it's a smaller fail cause i would have like 1 BITE of pizza not because it would make me fat, but because it would be ruining my principals of only eating those foods .. get it? :D try it ! :* hugs and love
ReplyDeleteyou are doing so well, you only had 3 doughnut holes. but try and avoid having any of tht crap stuff. youll begin to not even want it anymore. i kno you did 1000 yrds, but try and exercise a little more. keep restricting. oh and another thing, idk wht you are drinking, but stay away from anything tht has cals in it. have like sobe life water or coke zero. both are good. you can do this, i kno you can. <3
ReplyDeleteahhh, a swimmer's diet, it was nice while it lasted
ReplyDeleteI usually reward myself with food when I reached a goal - kind of counter intuitive, but it worked for me. I would write down the foods I craved and keep the list with me until I met my goal and then I would pick things from the list to treat myself to.
& yes, it sucks to hit a plateau when you feel like the weight should be flying off - try drinking green tea while restricting, it's supposed to help with your metabolism. Sometimes when I fast I gain weight before I lose it - weird.
good luck! xo