Success: hopefully

Last night was hard.
I made my friends take me to the gas station as soon as they picked me up so I could buy a sprite zero to fight off any potential cravings that may occur later in the night.
They had cheese cake in the car... didnt touch it, even though its my favorite.
We went to fucking meijer. For like 2 hours. SO much food. I thought I was going to die.
Luckily I left my wallet at brads haha
All 6 of my friends I was with bought food...
It was healthy for the most part: little veggie and fruit snack pack things. Also a whole block of cheese?? lol
Mike bought a pizza lunchable, I think I almost attacked him for it bahaha.
Luckily, I ended the night with only eating 6 pea pods and a small chunk of cheese. SO I didnt go over 100 cals so i'm really proud of that...but I also wish I didnt touch the cheese... but it was mozzerella and not horrible.


ALSO I bought these 50 calorie lipton soup in a cup things :D wayyy too pumped about that haha.
They had fruit there that looked so freakin amazing I wanted to just eat it right there in the store haha
Brad has these bagel thin things that are 110 each. Basically bagels that are flat? I had a microscopic bite of that as well. SO GOOD. I NEED TO BUY THESE haha

I've been up for an hour and a half and havent ate anything.
Brad is out transfering suplies for his next painting job.
His paycheck was supossed to be $1200, he got it this morning and it was only $212... wtf.
He owes my mom $227 for the eminem tickets, $400 for our rent that is due on 7/15 and $200 for his families phone bill because his mom cant pay it because she spends her money on stupid shit.

SO hes calling and bitching about it later..... He should be able to get paid at least close to that.

And I know this sounds selfish as fuck, but my birthdays on wednesday, and hes going to feel horrible for not getting me anything, although I guess the concert tickets were part of my present. I personally don't really care if I don't get anything. I guess all I want is to be with him for the day. That's really all I want. It's supposed to rain so i'm praying work will be cancelled. I'm not sure what my parents are getting me... they keep talking about something they saw at the mallthat they didnt think I had yet?!? I have no idea.... they pay so much on my loans that I dont really care....

Brad cracks me up though. When he came over the other night he got all pumped because I was drinking diet pop lol. I guess it's because I NEVER drink pop and he was excited that I relaxed? haha I was like B, its 0 cals.... haha
But then last night, he tried to get me to eat one of the bagels, (my freakin favorite food ) and I was like no thanks, and he got kind of mad. So I was like: You're mad cause i'm not eating? And hes like I could care less if you ate. So I think he was just referring to the bagel? lol We'll see how he feels about it when I hit 135. haha
I just want you all to know that if and when I do hit 135. I'm going to look skinny as fuck. Like i'm not sure what it is about me, but i've always had like hidden muscle for swimming, and big bones of something. But 135 will look freakin legit. I hope haha

Alright.
Ill update when brad takes me home and I can weight myself. I work 1-7 today so once again I can bring a certain amount of food and its controlled.
I NEED to work out today.
Im not sure if i'll swim or what.
I NEED TO GO TO THE DAMN GYM
I bought me and brad summer passes for 60 bucks each, plus 30 for the 24 hour key. SO I really need to go more. In the past I never ran or swam like I said I would, so I guess since I actually am this summer, i'm not using it like I would of in the past. But brad's been going so at least hes using it :]

Brad just texted me and said his manager said hes supposed to make over a grand, so 400+200+250= 850 he'll be fine :]

Sorry for the boring post.
Love you all
wish me luck on the scale bahaha
Bloated as hell from this damn period so if I lose i'll be pumped :D

Lilah <3