We had a party at our apartment... it was interesting lol.
We ate and ate and ate...
Then ate and ate and ate when we woke up... and its still happening.
Luckily I did work out yesterday so AT LEAST it's something
So far this weekend I have got about 30% of what I wanted to complete... it's going to be a long week.
I have a 5 page paper today and I have been doing everything possible to put it off.
This is me unscrewing our kitchen doors so that we can have a beer pong table lmao.... oh college.
Ps. NEW JEANS :) I like them!
SO! I am getting fat, I can feel it, I can see it, it's my fault lol...
Im going to start working out a lot more, and eating less...
I've been out of control. Eating is become my best friend again... which is bad lol
Im thinking of hiding my scale for a couple weeks and when I get on next I wnat to be 154 again... but it probably wont happen because I like my scale too much lol
OH and I don't think I told you girls, I had this very deep talk with my friend Jack.
He has really bad anxiety like me, his may be worse, but he's never actually met someone with it... SO Im hoping I helped him out.
I can remember what it's like not know what wrong with you and constantly thinking your crazy...
But he also told me that he has body dsymorphia too.. I think it's kind of cool in a way to meet a guy with it. But he was saying, don't you just feel a high from eating nothing but a half sandwich all day. I was cracking up, like you have noooo idea.
Im pretty sure everyone knows I have some sort of eating/weight issue... or they just think im super annoying. either/or.
haha
I just neeeeed to get back to where I was.
And im actually going to do it this time!
i'm going to type out meal plans for the whole week.
Live off of water.
and oatmeal, yogurt, fruit and veggies...
It's gonna happen.
I REALLY want to see my friends from state, but first I have to be 152 or less.. And I guarantee if I hopped on the scale it would be around 158-161
So I can not have that!
Sorry for the ramblings, heres some thinspo.
Oh and btw... if any of these pics are yours and you want them down, just let me know. I found them on random websites...
Lilah :)
I need to restart myself too, been eating too often & too much & bad quality lately. Good luck! Remember, you're not the only one who has been doing not-so-great but we can all start again at any moment & take back control. (yes, that all sounds kinda corny, but it's true, even if I myself don't always remember that.)
ReplyDeleteWho needs kitchen doors? Beer pong table sounds like its way more needed :p.
ReplyDeleteYour looking good, It doesn't look like you've gained anything and your eating habits don't sound anything out of the norm. Good luck with that paper :S I hate school work lol