SO I just ran 1.4 miles...
weighed myself... 166.
What.The.Fuck.
I showered.
Made myself puke.
And took 3 laxatives.
Wonderful.
This is what my life is becoming.
the sad part is that, it was veggies? what the hell? lol... that was from like 2:30?
it sucks that my goal for Saturday now has to be 159... But I guess as long as im in the 150's I can't really complain.
I know that at least 2-3 pounds on my right now are bloating for my period.... but I still hate it.
I'm not eating tomorrow.
All that will go through my body is tea, odwalla 100% juice/puree and juice. Maybe some fruit... we'll see.
I tried on my halloween costume tonight and surprisingly it actually still looks good. When I gain weight it goes to my hips and thighs, and a little on my stomach, so with what Im wearing its not bad... plus when I pull the spandex underneath it up + the pantyhose, it actually hides my fat quite well :)
Love you all!
Lilah
Oh my god periods piss me off sooo much.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with tomorrow! You'll get to the 150's in no time. :-*
ReplyDeletexoxoxo
ok so youre making me sad. i love you, and i want you to lose weight (cause you want to) and i want you to feel good about yourself, but i dont want to see you start purging. I know thats a little hypocritical considering that we both have pro-ana blogs, and i've attempted to purge as well, but i dont want to see you get sucked into something that you cant stop. I've noticed that most people on here that purge hate the fact that they do it, its not a habit i want you to have.
ReplyDeletei love you.
you're beautiful.
please stop.