Last night was... good I think?

So I went out with Joe last night and it was fun lol....

I gotta say though. I not sure if it will really go anywhere farther than us hooking up and just being friends lol.


He still hasnt tried to like legit have sex with me tho...
But after we like "hooked up" or whatever... lmao I sound retarded.... We got talking about kids and somehow I mentioned I was on birth control... so we'll see what happens lmao...

SO Ill tell you all the detail lol.
Basically...I went over there... we hung out. cuddled a little... but not really lol...
WEnt to dinner. it was fun, we had some good laughs lol I told him I would buy dinner and it was so hard for him, it was hilarious haha.

but he bought the movie tickets after so it was all good lol.
Movie was good... But I think he was wayyyy too into the movie to even think about me lol... its cool though.

Went to walmart... he bought me pom wonderful lol

Chilled at his house and I ended up sleeping over and we like... idk did whatever just not sex haha....

Woke up.. and It really wasn't awkward at all lol... ;like it wasnt the first time but idk...
It was cool too because I would turn over at night and he would totally like spoon me and not just iggnore the shit out of me haha..

wow maybe I am just crazy insecure...

So I got home this morning and weighed 160.8?! HOW!? lol I ate 3 pieces of pizza lol... so that was a legit shocker....


But I was crazy depressed this morning... just thinking how he doesnt like me ( Like its the end of the fucking work right??) haha...
and I was thinking about how bad I hurt Brad and what we had planned and how I have no one to live with next year... but I'll figure something out lol...

And Im a lot happier now, we texted all day and what not so obviously that helped.

I am legit like praying that he comes over later.... isn't that sad? We literally live like 1 minute walking distance apart...
Our college has a 1 dollar movie every month and my roomies are going so I invited him and he said he may just relax.... but personally I would rather just chill in my bed with him lmao...

so we'll see what happens...
Ill probably just end up slutting myself over there again haha...

So back to food...

I had a nutragrain bar... im going to start eating breakfast and less dinner... I mean I already barely was eating dinner...
but then eventhing else I ate today was good besides some tootsie rolls (lol) and then i had that strawberry icecream thing again (110) which isnt bad....

so Today is good.

I have some mixed veggies and some coke zero cherry to tide me over for the night.... maybe some popcorn later haha...

I hope everyone has an awesome day :) I really do!

Thanks for listening to my rambles... promise this will start to be more about food eventually... lol.

I just freak out too much ha...

Oh! Did i mention that he shaves his chest? I think thats so fucking hot.
lol

and he got his hair cut.. and looked amazing last night :)

anyways... back to my freakin life lol.


Love you all :)
Kels.