new plan! Again...lol

So I slept really bad last night...i fell asleep at 9 something, legit got into REM sleep ad the woke up a little after 11 and was awake till like 2.  Which wouldn't usually be too big of a deal but I had to wake up at 5 something.  And now I'm waiting for the bus and this wind is horrible....one of the only times I am glad I'm not 90 pounds so that I can actually still walk.

so anywayy bus is finally here lol

so back to this plan lol.  No plan this week as long as monday morning I weigh 159.8 or less lol.

I should finally be getting this car so hopefully that way I'll be able to come home sunday instead of monday wirh the roomies.... So I'll ne watching my intake, trying to work out this week, hopefully go to the tanner a couple times...probably not tho lol... Get my nails done?? Idk...my phone would be really shitty to text on with nails lol

but yea...6:39 am and no food yet ahahahah wow...im so amazing lol

I thinking orange juice at work... Fruit...the usual.. Veggies to bring home for lunch...

I have to meet with my fucking probation officer today...luckily my roomates have to go too so I'm at least not alone.  1 month down, 5 to go lol... I still haven't decided when I'm going to drink again... I may over christmas break with my friend ryan who is back from the army...idek

lol so I'm hanging out with jason this week....the guy that I kind of dated lol I think he's like 22 now?? Haha...idek but he has a gf so this shpuld be interesting ahahahaha

when I get back from thanksgiving break shit is going to be going down tho....my goal for christmas was 149 but I think I may set it around 155ish.  I know it will change as the date approaches...but really...i should be 155 by the 18th of december...which is easily possible...i just need to lay off the damn cansy....and cookies...and not let thanksgiving kill me.

so I found out that the meds I'm pn for anxiety is also used in the treatment of eating disorders...thought that was funny....maybe that's why I fail so bad....when I was younger before my meds I could starve myself a whole lot easier.... Owell

I'm gonnnna stop blabbering now lol.   Love you all :)

lilah