I need help...
Im becoming depressed again.
Im just not happy anymore.
I just puked.
I ate a ton of crackers... felt sick... I felt sick before and thought the crackers would make it feel better.... but it made it worse and I felt like I was going to get sick...
WTF.
2 questions.
Why can I bearly get anything up and out?
Why do I even try?
serisouly. it's so bad for me...
I hate when others do it.
I hate thinking that I just did that.
But it's like before it happened I had no control over it... like no choice.
It was going to happen...
I don't fucking know
Im done with this.;
I want to live somewhere warm where I can go run at night.
I want a BESTFRIEND.
a girl.
Who understands me and loves me for who I am.
But Ill never find this friend... and it sucks... I hate it,,,,,,....
I wish I could come see one of you guys... or you could come see me
I hate it...
I hate all of this...
Whats the point....
of any of this....
I just want to be happy....
dont we all?
Im sick and tired of lying...
being fake.
I dont know hwat to do with myself anymore...
Someone come be my friend.....
I'm sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. I wish I had more friends too, pretty much all of mine live at least 2 hours away, & none of them are exactly a close friend. I hope things start to look up for you. If you ever need someone to email/text to vent or whatever, I'm here.
ReplyDeleteI love you Lilah, I really really do, and no matter how much I say I wish I was there, I'm not. But I really think you will someone, because you are amazing and incredible, and just so lovely.
ReplyDeleteI really wish I could solve your problem, I know my words don't really help.
But hey, If your ever in Ireland, come see me.
Fate can be so cruel, keeping us all away from each other
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