It was bad.
I came home from babysitting, made $50!
and started drinking jello shots.
Had 21.
Now, that said they are small, probably about 1/3 of a normal one? lol
Then had a glass of wine at dinner with the parents.
Ok, I was feeling good, should have stopped.
But if you know me, when I start I cant stop.
Went to a party and did three rounds of these double shots.
one was orange vodka, one was this weird expensive whisky.
so that was 6 in total. then 2 more.
How am I not on the floor puking? I really could not tell you.
I actually remember every thing too.
Thank you freshman year at Michigan State.
Anyway.
I was with Jake,
The guy I used to kinda talked to.. has a girl friend... we ended up hooking up...and I'm serisouly pissed off about it.
Did I tell you about my "J" factor?
The last few guys I have talked to/hooked up with:
Joe,Josh,Justin,Jim,Joe,Jake.
WHAT THE HECK MAN?!?!
ok back to important things.
I don't want to be easy anymore.
I want to be a solid person.
I want to be healthy and work out more.
That being said, it is 7pm and I haven't ate anything today... lol
But last night while intoxicated, I consumed a ton of spaghetti and 2 pieces of breadsticks! oh snap!
Starting the pic thing again. lol
My parents are making grilled chicken and prob salad for dinner, so I am going to pick at it.
159 by christmas isnt lookin too hot, but its ok.
Im getting back to where I need to be... Although my self image is at an all time low, you girls make me try to see my positive attributes, and I thank you all sooo much for that.
Did I tell you girls Im joining the swim team next semester? I'm making it happen :)
Love you girls more than you know.
I'm still reading your blogs, just not too much to say right now.... December is always a depressing month for me :/
Love always,
Kels.
OH! and wanted to post this pic from the other night.
We were killlin it at the BP table. Don't mind my hugeness lol, i'm trying to focus only on the fun I had, not how I look lol.
PS Kid in black is gorgeous... he was "hitting on me/just having fun drunk convo?" haha turns out he used to talk to the other girl in the pic... hahaha she was prob really pissed off! opps :/
congrats about maintaining and the swim team. damn girl hold your liquor haha. at least you remember everything. and you were even able to count how much you had so that's a good sign!!!
ReplyDeleteyour toenails are shinnyyy. do they have little diamonds on them? is it weird that I am looking at your toes??
looovveee yaaaa
I love drinking fuck loads and not gaining.
ReplyDeleteScratch that I just love drinking fuck loads.
Anyway, your weight doesn't matter too much as long as you are feeling on track and never mind about being 'easy' as long as you are doing what you want to it's nobody's business.
xxx
the things i did and ate when i was drinking is the main reason why i stopped ;) but please take care of yourself and be safe, even when you're having fun!
ReplyDeleteLol. I'm currently engaged to Greg, dated Gerard before hime, and before that I was hooked on a Garren. .... :P
ReplyDeleteI am also a hot mess when I get drunk... Can't wait to be small enough that someone can carry me if I pass out lol.
I, for one, think that you look gorgeous! I wish I had long pretty hair like yours.
ReplyDeleteAnd at least you can wear short sleeved shirts and still look pretty. My arms are huge and stretch-marky and just all together gross.
I have a similar conundrum with the boys, every boyfriend I have ever had has been some shade of blonde lol. Different names, same hair color.
I agree with the last paragraph of Nessa's comment. I want boyfriend to be able to carry me =]
Stay Strong, dear!