I just binged.
and purged.
wtf.
I don't do this.
and the thing that scares me the most... is that I actually was fairly successful at it...
I never am... but this time I threw up a whole pound of food... well I lost a pound after..
I dont want to fucking do this.
You girls are the only ones I can tell...
I just hate it...
It was like I had no control..
It happened after I ate a shit ton of fritos... actually... I dont even think it was that much...
under 200 cals...
but I had a bunch of chocolate... and carrots...
I was doing well though... 50 cals of soup, 60 cals of yogurt, 32 cals of egg white...
then I just "needed" chocolate...
Ithink im going to work out again tonight,...
I dont even want to leave my house... wtf...
sorry for this shitty ass post...
hopefully it wont happen again...
I'm not a purger either...I tried and failed before hahaha
ReplyDeleteDo you think you're going to try Mia now?
And thank you for the comment on my blog, though you're 5'9" and I would have never guessed how much you weigh...gorgeous!
plus...its the holiday's so we can be a little loose right...
;) hahah xoxo
chocolate&carrots? purging didn't scare me until i started spitting blood afterward. i'm sorry you're upset. i hope you cheer up soon, darling.
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zette
Oh, sweetie, don't start this. Bulimia is absolute hell, you don't want it, trust me.
ReplyDeleteI haven't purged in a long time. Thankfully. I hate it. Whenever I do it, I am both proud (for getting the food/cals back out) & pissed at myself (because I know how bad it is to do & I am mad I even got to a point where I felt I needed to do it). I am sorry you are having an awful day, I hope it gets better. Maybe working out will help get you some happy endorphins.
ReplyDeleteMy dear, it's ok. We all have done that.
ReplyDeleteit's ok. We all still love you unconditionally. It's ok. You'll have more control next time. I promise.
stay superstrong!
-Molly <3
:( dont start down this evil path, love. its so dangerous.
ReplyDeleteand I agree-I was really bad at it when I first started.
feel better dear, and know that you can lose weight more effectively and safer by being healthy!
loves you!
(More regarding your last post...) but damn your friends like to CHOW DOWN! Seriously are like all uber-obese?? Do they not know you are dieting? Maybe if you told them they wouldn't tempt you. Anyways about this post, one time purge won't hurt ya. I mean there are plenty of people who are sick and puke everyday and they survive so its probably fine. Not that you should do it!! :) Just don't worry.
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