self control.

I can finally control myself now.
I truly amazed me last night.
Although this may not seem like a great feat to you girls, this was awesome for me...
I went to taco bell with a friend, and only got a diet coke.
Then we went to the choir concert and after we all went  to apple bees.
Instead of saving money and getting the 1500 calorie cheese sticks or quesidilla, I got soup and a salad.:)
Which actually was only 6 bucks!

Not going to lie... I did have a few chips and like 3 fries... but still.
This is great for me.
Progress that I haven't seen in quiet a while.

I think i'll be 163 tomorrow morn.

So I didnt even mention why the motivation!!!!

So Im becoming my own person right... it's going to be great :)

AND There is this new years party right...
and its a black and white formal....
and I kind of want to look hot..
and Joe will be there...
lol

BUT I just want to look great.
I'm probably going to end up getting a hair cut soon, even if it's not at my weight goal...

Also, I just ate a lot of healthy food... but still too much... yea i just ate all of that..... wtf? haha Its fine tho... because it's going to keep me full for the rest of the day haha.
Now you all know what I go through at work lol
BUT THEY HAD SOY BEANS TODAY!! :D :D :D

alright... sorry if I'm still ADD/randomly babbling... I just really need more sleep.... sleep deprivation makes me nuts!!

I had a small cookie today.. I kinda freaked out when my boss told me she made us all cookies.... but I had one little chrismas cookie... it tasted healthy? if that makes since? haha

I REALLY want to work out today..... but all I can think of right now is sleeping lol.



But that's all im eating for a while.

my stomach was growling all morning at least..



This is how I want to look at this party:

Not this:

Although I suppose that I will take somewhere in between...

that first dress, which I think looks more like a night gown lol is only 10 bucks!!
but obvi wont be wearing that!

Ill figure something out.

Love you girlies.
Kels.