SUPER GAY

so i woke up and my phone is cracked? I guess that happens to a lot of palm pixis.... fuck.

umm I didnt eat til 11! and work started at 7 so that's REALLY good for me lol
I had 10 grapes, 5 pieces of pinapple? maybe less lol and some walnuts... I think i had 1/2 cup ish, BUT I still have some left to snack on

then at 2:30: like 2 bites of cottage cheese, one slice of a cucumber and green beans... not sure on the amount... I'm worried that they were high in sodium? well now it's 4:40... I really thought that I may lose weight... but i didn't... well I don't think i did my scale is still going crazy haha.

But my stomach is growling like its pissed.
I prob only had like 300 calories so far? idk... what do you guys think?

well I feel super bloated and look nasty.. I felt like i actually looked decent this morn.
I think it has to do with the fact that my bf is coming over.. and my whole body dysmorphic thing kicks in.. who knows...

but I brought home a protein bar: 170
a salad with walnuts and spinach and celery and driend cranberries... wont finish it and.. a banana and apple.

so even if I do eat... which i will... it's all healthy..
I stopped the once a day treats unless I really need it.
also, I got 2 bags of popcorn, anddd jolly ranchers for my bf.. I'll have some popcorn... maybe 1 jolly. we will see.

BUT YA that's about it.
I'm really hoping to be able to see 181.6 again in the morn or less. after work I was 181.4 for a few times... but then it started saying 182.4 so I rally don't know lol.
I actualy don't give a fuck I just REALLY want it to start saying 17_.? soon lol

ANYWAY have anmazing night everyone
I'm going to go NOT have sex with my bf since I've had my fucking period for like 8 days....efffff