when I came home yesterday, I weighed 180.5 (with clothes on) . Now the scale at my home (my parents home) is always a little bit above what you actually are. so this was expected.
At the doctors, with shoes, I was 179.6 so that made me feel a tiny bit better.
This morning, I was 176.5 (well according to scale that is usually wrong lol) so I'm not to worried, I'm prob like 174ish still.
Now, the sad part... if my scale at school is too low... then that means I may have actually reached the 190's in August... which is obviously a super depressing issue. But I will never know for certain, so we are just going to assume 188.8 was what woke me up haha...
ANYWAYS. sad news, my weight loss plan is obviously not going to work. I've been eating sooo healthy, ( or at least A LOT more healthy that I was) yet I'm still maintaining... According to my weight loss calender, I am supposed to be 171 when I weigh in on tuesday...and as much as I want that to happen, I just don't see it.
So although my "current goal" is 158 on halloween, i'm going to have to say that as long as I am 169.9 by then, I will be happy. I just need to break these 170's ASAP.
Todays food:
in process of finishing fiber one bar: 140
Sushi for lunch with mom: ??
then who knows...
Mom wants to take me clothes shopping... which is wonderful, since she doesn't really do that anymore... I guess being 20 means I'm supposed to buy my own clothes bahaha :)
BUT I am way too large still to buy jeans... which is what she wants to buy me. However, I do need shirts... and shirts tend to fit for a lot longer than pants do lol.
I also just found 2 pairs at my house... one is a 30 waist, one is a 29. Oh and a 27... I bought those like 5 years ago with one of my first paychecks. Silvers, love them... but def not putting those on for a while haha. Ummm The 30's look good, but if I keep losing weight they won't fit for long. as soon as I hit 169 the 29's are going to look amazing.
I also have 2 pairs at school from A&F that are a 10... those should fit when I'm ay 169 too...
then I have a ton more that are lower sizes and I can not wait to me in the 150's again so I can wear them all! :)
Okay, I'm done rambling.
My main goal in life right now (sad I know) Is to just get in the 160's and mantain in there for as long as possible.. .well, obviously try to lose... haha but I just hate seeing these 170's ( and sometimes 180's with clothes -_-)
On a good note, I am starting to swim more... well, will be I hope haha.
My schedule makes it impossible for M/T/W night swim... but hopefully I can figure something out.
Love you girls, have a fabulous weekend!
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thanks for your comment :) :) :)
ReplyDeletei wish i had a scale at school, a digital one. the one at home is a dial one and it's annoying but i think it's pretty accurate? or at least i hope so. scales are frustrating no matter what though.
also, in response to your last post, i'm glad you told your bf. taking those kinds of steps brings you closer, and i never took the opportunity to tell my bf about my eating issues before he died, and it's my biggest regret. i know he knew something was up, and i almost told him once, but at the time i didn't think it was the right time. it really would have been the perfect time. maybe your bf can help you.
also-also, you WILL get into the 60s :) you can do it.
stay strong, and stay safe <3
Maybe you should try to do a little more exercise each day and the weight might come off a little faster? Or eat slightly smaller meals? Or instead of eating a Fiber One bar, eat some broccoli or carrots or an apple or something. Processed foods are easier to digest. And fruits and veggies will fill you up just as well without as many calories. Just stay strong and stay positive and keep working towards your goals.
ReplyDeleteHi there :) Stay strong! I've been facing a similar battle, my weight is very similar to yours. I know its tough, especially when you're trying to be healthy I completely understand that. Anyway, I'm here for ya if you want to vent or someone to talk to. I'm at 176.8 right now, and 160 sounds pretty nice :) Anyway, stay strong, you can do it!
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ReplyDeleteI too have gained since last on blogger but thats comin off for sure this time rd! missed youu....
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