you guys it's 6 am and I'm drunk nd higgh? I don't even ever realky smoke weef I knoq I'll regret this tomorrow byt I just don't cate...like seriously....im partied with my old friend who I really rhink is like possibly the only petson I would or could of loved... Like I love brad sooo much, with all my heary...and then i have these feelings uggg im sorry ill tell u more tomorrow,, im si immature i wish u guys could be my real frieds like in real lide u haye this... i want to be pisitive... but i just dobt want to eat ne more i want to be happy....i want ti love i font gey it....i don't want to worry about stupid things anymore. I love you all a lot.... i just wish we could meet in real life.......and i hate these feelings....i nees you guys for real likw in my actually life.... Ahhhh... Y do I feel this way? I love brad... And I jusy want to eat food and be ok... I wish I made differwnnt choices my senior year to see how things went.....were a lot alike....ii wish...but is still love brad more thaan anything...maybe I just want attentionzn but I think that I almost liked himmore than liking....i juat missed him, ans this suxks.. I'm gonna go swe brad tomorrow to makw it betyyer..oh yea my friend puked and some ghit my mouth....fuxk...but I love my friend cassy is the shit...please don't judge me :/ this is why you don't drink on anti depresents
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I luuuuuve you Lilah Lee you were proper smashed when you wrote this but I don't care I wish it too!
ReplyDeleteI feel I know you better than some of my own friends and I've only got to know you just over a week :)
(sends big hugs)
Hope you feel better soon
and GO SEE BRAD!!!! :)
Loadsa love
Wilted~Rose ♥
well at first i was laughing out loud at this cause you were just so darn cute with the whole "you guys im drunk and high" thing, but the rest i cant really laugh about...it sounds like you were having a rough night, and hopefully everything is better today. don't feel bad about partying with this guy, obviously you had feelings for him and its irrational to think that feelings can disappear so easily. It sounds like you really love brad though, so don't let one night of fun make you doubt that.And I love you so much too, if you're ever near the kentucky area let me know! haha but i hope everything is ok and works out, you're so strong and positive!
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