last night.

I drank. lol

the first time in a while.

and ate... candy and taco bell.

why you may ask?

yay.... asking the same thing too.

no more drinking. waste of cals and makes me eat.

My friend I have known since I can remember had a little house party last night.... it was fun.

except for me and this girl on her volleyball team had the same shoes... except heres were darker and she wore mine home? lol so I had to spend the night so I could get them back this morning... but who knows... could of saved me a DUI.... even tho.. I drove to taco bell lol.. I'm pretty sure I would have been below the legal limit....if I was 21 lol

then this morning her bro made us "egg mcmuffins" I held the bacon...should of held the cheese... it wasnt really that horrible tho... better than mcdonalds... but then they brought out her grandmas homemade pumpkin roll bread... o lord... had two small pieces of that...

so after all is said and done.... lets just say... i'm very glad I starved myself all day yesterday lol

today before I leave... Ill finish my cranberries and a grapefruit... will probably take the rest of my grapefruit with me to school too.

I really want to focus on a lot of water this week... and hopefully back off on the diet pop... since that has been my life recently...

my face is a little bigger... which I hate...like I can still feel my cheek bones pretty well.... so its not as bad as it has been... but I realllly want to lose 3-5 pounds this week.

i'll start posting scale pics tomorrow morning.

I saw Jason last night!!! He stopped by for like 30 min :)

that's us when we used to date ish... I weigh less now.. I think I was 171 there? and I don't think I look horrible... but its weird because I feel bigger now... yet im like 10 pounds less? whatever.. he's fucking gorgeous and I miss him....BUT LOOK AT MY ARM! uggggg.

I also, told one of my best guy friends I wanted to have sex with him last night lmao... hes in the army and in Colorado... haha

I've known him foreverrr and a day lol.

not gonna lie... I am kinda attracted to him... I guess we'll see what happens tho... becuase then there is always Joe.

 Lol at picture bahaha I just had to post it because it cracks me up... he's trying to do the whole "my new hair cut" video on youtube...

I am legt like crazy about this guy though....so obvi if we're going to actually date... I would never cheat on him... but if he's not willing to give me everything... them i'm obviously not going to either.

o and notice how he is like skinny/in shape... yea.

when he lays on top of me... i'm def wider... sure, I'm a girl and am supposed to have curves... but it can not stay that way....

haha.... so I hope everyone enjoys my random ass picture posts lately...

I've been trying to comment more! I just don't have a lot to say right now for some reason... maybe im just tired all of the time.... who knows.

is it bad that I am glad im not going to church? i almost stayed at my friends longer so I wouldn't have to... I am a horrible person...

alright, a couple more picture...

 I think I was 159 here... when I went up to state... I was kind of likin how my leg looked here lol.... those are Amanadas size 11 shorts tho! the fuck lol... I really dont think I look like an 11 here!

 I was prob like 158ishhh here? why is my shirt up and can you get more trashy? lmao....

This was my lowest weight... eminem concert on september 3rd? 154.2

not gonna lie... my stomach is actually looking alright here... the thing is.. that the girl in the dark gray next to me weighs 120... and I weigh 154.... I think I look that much bigger... whatever.

I just need to get back to 154 asap.

my metablosim is more than ready to starve lol.

I have been pooping like everyday... so that's how I know hahaha

alright 

love you girls :)

have an awesome Sunday!

Kels