NOVEMBER FINALLY :D

SO Glad October is over!

One month ago today I got an MIP, so October was just a bad month...

Anyway! I woke up around 7ish this morning, and Im currently in the car n the way back to school.....

I still haven't ate anything and I'm trying to keep it that way.

The only candy I brought back with me is 2 tootsie pops.  60 cals each.

SO I'm gonna try and save those for when Im really craving sugar.

Haven't really thought u a meal plan yet.

I still have 1 green pepper and a little bag of baby tomatoes.

And a shit ton of yogurt... Dannon light and fit 60 cals each.  and then a big tub which is like 110 per cup I think and I usually do a 1/2 cup, so 55.

I also have a lot of oatmeal,both plain and packaged.  My loaf of bread ( 35 cal) is almost gone and I'll probably finish that in the next few days.

Also, I have my 35 cal laughing cow cheese.

and veggie chips :) Which I still haven't opened.

Im going to try to keep my intake around 400-800 and anything more I will have to burn off.

I was 167.5 on my moms scale which is usually about 2 pounds up. AND I ate soooo much last night hat I don't even want to think about what my stomach looks like right now lol.

I had the weirdest dream last night.

I was like in therapy for an ED? or school for it?

I don't really know... but all I remember is that it was like a group thing and we took tests... and then I became severly bulimic... it was really weird.... but I had like friends that were bulimic with me?? I don't really know.,..

I hate ED dreams....

Because I know I don't severly have one... and I feel like everyday i'm pushing myself towards one more.  and at the same time, its as if I want it back.... to be how I used to be again...I don't really know...

Well all I do know is that november is a brand new month, and Im going to make it great :)

Goal weight by Thanksgiving= 153.?

I think? lol.

Bring on the water, exercise, and laxatives! just kidding on the last one.... maybe haha.

But seriosly.  I do plan on going ot the gym around 4x a week.  That's my goal at least.

It's near impossible for me to find time on Thursdays but every other day I really do have no excuse.

Seriously, word can not describe how excited I am that November is finally here.

It's one month closer to this semester ending, one month closer to Christmas and one month closer to spring :)  Also, one month closer till im 21 lol. although that is still in the distant future... I can at least say one month closer to being off of probation!

Hmmm I think that I may be rambling! lol

Should probably stop while i'm ahead :)

Good luck today ladies! I know you'll do fabulous!

Wish me luck!

Lilah <3