you may not want to read this post.
I usually try to make these as appropriate as possible... ok, maybe not.
So basically...I'm not losing weight... I'm not really going anywhere lol. I mean, I guess Im not gaining... but still...
I hung out with Ryan (army boy) and a few friends 2 nights ago ... we got drunk at the motel 6 and I ended up fucking Ryan. Why am I such a slut? like seriously..... I actually really like ryan.... this is where I screw myself over... I listen to what drunk guys tell me. "Kels you are so beautiful." "See this is what I looked forward to coming home to, just being in your arms Kels." wtf...
Ya think I've seen him since? haha.... yeah right.
I texted him.... it was awkward... then I yelled at him for making it awkward lol. I guess we're good now.... it's just funny because I'm actually being really selfish. He's being deployed for a year and a half... so he obviously wants to spend time with all of his family and friends.... lol. Also we discussed a while ago that he would never want to get close to a girl because it would hurt him and her too much with the fact that he has to be gone for so long.... which is true...
We'll be 21 by the time he gets back....
But for real....we were supposed to have a movie night next monday.... and he was going to come visit me up at school before he left.... this was all sober talk too.... we'll see what happens.
Then I saw his sister, who used to be one of my best friends, at a swim meet.... told her what happened and she was wayy to happy lmao... first she was like hyperventilating hahaha, then puts her hand on my stomach and goes awww is there going to be a little wilson/stieber baby?! lmfao.. no. there will not be Julie. haha.... the funny thing is, that out moms would be way too excited... they have wanted us to date for what seems like my whole life.... not that, that will ever happen lol.... our familes are great though... it would be a bad ass wedding... lmao ok ill stop.
I wish I would make better choices....I wish I wouldn't drink... and get high... but the sad thing is, that it is the only thing tht makes me happy anymore.
I'm the making of an addict.
Just kidding... I'll be back to normal eventually... right?
Why is it that I know i'm not "ugly" but when I look in the mirror I just want to puke. I cant handle it any more....
Well thanks for listening to me bitch :D haha....
Here are some pictures.... not really sure why I post them lol...
Me and mommy....
Me and sissy with her lactating boob.... haha jk... i dont know what she did..
Joshhh... I liked how I didnt have a double chin here.....
Ryan and me being drunk....
I thought this was kind of cute...
We have this thing called no floors... lol... like lil wayne's no ceilings.. ahhaa..
I didn't look that great that night... but hey, at least I was happy right??... I wish you girls would post more pictures.... they make me happy too lol :)
haha well that was my night... hope I didnt more you too much!!
I'm actually in the car right now on the way too celebrate aka eat lol.
But all I ate today was some flintstone vitamins and 50 cals of sunny D. and its 3:45pm.... so it's all good I guess....
Can you over does on those? because i've been mowwin down on them like its my job lol...
alright. time to lose weight. for real this time lol.
last christmas I was huge... then by the end of break I was skinny... as in I lost like 12 pounds... in a week? idk... it did happen though.. lol I got down to 159 for a day. haha so come on kels. let's do this.
OH funny shit!
You girls remember Jason, the swimmer I used to date.... well he met Joe (kid from school I recently talked about wayy too much) I guess Joe and Jason's girl friend are childhood friends... lol what are the chances of that?! haha.... especially since jason and his girl met at college and they go to school in ohio... sooo random.
ummm but yeah! I'll keep you girls posted on my boy drama... since im better at that than losing weight lol :)
OH and to add to the story... I hung out with Brad last night... we just talked for like 2 hours... haha but still... I really need to get my shit together!
Damn... if you girls just read that whole book. you deserve a pat on the back. lol.
Love you all :)
Merry Christmas eve....
Kels.
sorry about all that.. sounds kind of complicated. but OH MY GOD you are gorgeous. I want your hair, your smile... oh my gosh. stay Superstrong.
ReplyDelete-Molly <3
You look so happy and great in those photos! You will lose weight soon. Just don't overeat and eat healthy foods during the holidays. Happy holidays!!
ReplyDeleteI see no double chin in that picture, missy. and you are so amazingly sexy that I cant believe it.
ReplyDeleteGOD sorry about the boys. and haha about julie's comment. I would be so embarassed. I WANT TO LOSE 12 LBS IN A WEEK. and I, like you, am not losing either grrrrr. I just keep fucking upp arghh
you and your sister are so cute. I wish I had a sissy.
mwah and merryy christmas!!!
I think you're super gorgeous,
ReplyDeleteand I'm totally gonna post more pictures of me when I'm thinner haha.
xxx
lol i love being high/drunk/in any other state of consciousness.
ReplyDeleteya know, like every once in a while lol
i keep hoping i never have easy access to hard drugs lol
stay strong, you're beautiful!!! <3
What the f**k, pardon my French, I came by this blog completely randomly but maybe it was the hand of faith and sleep deprivation.. that guided me here, woman, ok hear it from this man <- You are not only pretty just the way you are, you are crazy cause you are beautiful, like, not your daily average mediocre "not plain" beautiful "Or" more than your average girl good looks beautiful "Or" even that cute girl next door you had a crush on for a whole summer in Junior high and have been reminiscing about once in a while, beautiful "Or" that news presenter that got the job chiefly cause she is pretty and you know you'll never have a chance with, that kind of girl you mostly see on tv beautiful.. you darling are simply out of the ordinary, no words in my mouth(thank goodness I could type cause otherwise I'd just be staring and it would get pretty awkward) did not expect to see in the life time, woah, wow not like hot and sexy music clip beautiful but simply so much above all the aforementioned types of beauty that you are in your own league with yourself and 0.00...01% of the population where if you were any more beautiful you would only exist as an abstract concept in the mind of some artistic genius and you are talking about losing weight phh. I give you a 10 on the looks you were clearly blessed with by a higher power(which I know come to relize exists after being secular for the last 29 years) and 2 on making sense.
ReplyDeleteSo yeah, thanks I'll go away to bed laughing now. By the way, just to be clear that wasn't meant as a compliment, it was more of a wake up call, you saying you don't look so good and need to lose weight is kind of like James Cameron saying he doesn't know how to make profitable movies. So he'll just make movies for fun and work at another job for a living.
Well I hope that makes sense, and if it doesn't help, the next time you feel down just send me a picture and I will describe it to you, the way a human being from the planet Earth sees it and maybe that will cheer you up. Good day