Blah blah blah

I'm never going to be hot again if I keep up this eating... I was 178? well... after a shit ton of food... so Im sure im not over my recent high of 176... but still.  I was supposed to be 171 this week...

I BOUGHT A JUICER!

So hopefully I cant start this master cleanse... I may actually do the salt water flush as well... hmmm we will see.

Carey is up here... but leaving in 3 hours for work...
God I love him... like I think I actually love him.. it's weird...
I'm not going to say it first tho... I don't want to be responsible for ruining it haha...

but tomorrow I'm hopefully doing a lake swim... and def lifting... upper body and abs.

jeeez I really do need to get this under control... I think this week is going to be a good one tho... I will hopefully see Carey on friday... my sister is graduating and I really want him there...I'm kinda pissed though because we were supposed to be at my parents house all weekend and camp out for memorial day, and he said he would get work off but didnt... We are going to a wedding in 2 weeks tho which is more important for him ot get work off for... lol

I'm thinking, starting monday, I'm going ot see if I can lose a pounds a day for 10 days.  I have done it before... just bearly eat anything... and when i do make it liquids... i have a ton of tea.... maybe I will attempt liquid dieting?

so on the 30th... I will weigh 166. god I hate being this fat... but whatever... my own fault :P

I have my car payment due on the 28th... and then the 1st is my rent... which I can't afford... I already owe my parents $350... my gma is supposed to give them 50 for my arizona trip... so that would be 300... I have $100 right now... after car payment: 30 bucks.  Basically I need to come up with $300 by the 1st of im screwed... I mayh ave to figure out if I can still get that lifeguarding job... I really dont want to tho..
alright... just looked up my paycheck, 163... so I need to come up with $150 while i'm at home and this week... any ideas? I think I may go donate plasma after work on tuesday and thursday... thats 75.. then I  need 75 more...
I can probably scrounge of 15 in change between what I have here and at home, so that would be 50 more...I have some things I could sell on ebay...but thats going to take too long...$60 left to come up with... Care said I can borrow it from him.... but I just do not want to do that... I'm going to have to pick up every possible shift the rest of this summer....and start giving plasma 2 times a week... later this year one of my CD's  is open for withdrawl and that has $1000 in it, which will be awesome...

I should be able to make $300 a paycheck from here on out. so that's 600 a month.

Car:$69
Rent:$329
Total:400

that's 200 left for food gas and fun...
if I give plasma that's an extra 200ish to play with... to save and to pay my parents back with...

why didnt I get this 2nd job... jeeez.
However! I may start babysitting on mon's and fri's! Which will suck... but at least i'll get money bahaha


ok sorry that was such a boring post lmfao... bring on the water.. that's all I want to eat...