Hello 170's...

...Nice to see you again.
However I'm not really planning on you staying all that long.
sorry.
the 160's looks better.

ANYWAY
Last night we went to a lugnuts game with my family... I got drunk... off of 2 mikes hard.
This DOES NOT happen to me. I usually take forever to get drunk. You have no idea how happy I was. It was obviously because I haven't been eating much, and I know Carey(bf) caught on.
It's funny.... like he knows I'm not really eating a lot... but he sort of supports it in  weird way. Not just because he wants me to look better. He keeps telling me that I'm beautiful and perfect and what not... but I think because he just really wants me to reach my goals and dreams and he's going to support me through them whatever they are. Well... at least that's what I think/hope lmao.

Yesterday I ate a cliff bar (240) super slow... made it last for hours haha
then didnt eat anything else till 5:30ish which was 1/2 a beer in the car.
we got to the gameand I was freaking out about what to eat... but then I remembered that I didn't eat all day on purpose so that I could eat and enjoy something at the game. So Carey got a beer and me a 24oz mikes... then we got philly chesse steaks lol. now, before you all freak out like what the hell was she thinking, I just want to let you all know that I got it without cheese and gave 3/4 of the bun to carey.  So I basically just ate cut up steak with sauteed onions and green pepper... so not horrible.

then we did stop at mcdonalds... i was drunk and hungry :/ but I just got a fruit parfait (160) because i'm literally addicted to them.

this morning I was 180.0 which pissed me off but I had barely spelt because we had to get carey home for work... so I came home slept, cleaned and tadaa 178. 0 thank the lord! and I still haven't for lack of a better word released the philly cheese steak lmao. so thats even better.
I'm actually 15 days ahead of my weight schedule so that is awesome.

it was funny, I was talking with my bf about weight...again, it really needs to stop lmao but he had no idea how much I really weighed...lol like he thought it was a lot les.. I never actually told him my weight but he was like I think if you got down to like 110 that would be perfect. and I started cracking up... me being 5'9.5 that may be hard haha guys are clueless when it comes to weight.
so then I showd him pics of me at different weights from the past few years... of course I am crazy and remember the exact number on all of them lol. but he saw the one at 154 and was like dude that's like perfect... and I'm thinking, and you just said I could get to 44 pounds less than that lmao.

anyway... i'm going to stop rambling
the one thing that is kind of freaking me out is that I accidentally told carey that I have a blog.
he was talking about these websites he used to run to tryadn make money off of with ads and what not... and I just casually (drunkenly) said, so I could put adds on my blog?
and he's like, you have a blog... and then it just kinda went to shit.
he's super smart when it comes to computers and what not... so I wouldnt really be surprised if he finds this... but whatever.. I guess if he finds it, he finds it. He asked if I talk about him on here LOL I was like ummm a little? and he was also like crazy surprised that I post everyday... HA

he's also way too ADD to read these long ass posts so I'm not super concerned... :)

well I am totally rambling... I was thinking of doing another water fast day but I think I'll just eat a fiber bar and then go from there.

OH this morning I wanted to take laxatives, but I misplaced mine in the move... I have since found them... but anyway, I took my old fiber pills... which did nothing.. yet at least... so I make take some laxxies later... but I'm promising myself that I'll only do it once a week... since that is... well... kinda healthy?
HAAA

love you girls.
Goal for month: read ever post and comment on all of whom I follow.

<3 <3 <3