The lowest weight my bf has seen me at is 167.
I just went back and read some posts...
well besides the one other time I met him in december. I may have been lighter, who knows.
So 166 is know my new "happy goal"
How did I let myself gain this much? It's so frustrating to think that 4 months ago I was almost 20 pounds lighter.
I'm not sure if I told everyone but I started taking my birthcontrol and Celexa again.
The purpose of me stopping them was to see if I would lose weight... but I actually gained. So I'm hoping that it will help me lose now that I'm back on.
I just realllly want to get back in the 170's
The 80's are grossin me out lol.
I miss my bf so much already... true, I did see him all last weekend and left tuesday morning at 4:30am but it still just seems so long.
Its funny to me how much I love this guy.
Kinda scary... idk.
I just want to look as beautiful as possible for him.
I havent ate any food, besides gum, since 3:30 which was 9 hours ago... so my stomach is goin nuts.
Intake estimate:
walnuts: 100
nut/fruit thing: 100
chocolate: 77
fruit:100
cottage cheese/veggies/eggs: 100
cottage cheese/green beans: 150
sushi: 290
total:917
super rough estimates....
oh i did drink an OJ that was 160... well i didnt finish it tho... I hate counting fresh juice tho. lolHere is a pic of us from this past weekend.
I hate that I miss him so much.
I can't wait till next year when we (hopefully) move in together. 
But since then we had a convo where he said that it prob wasn't a good idea for us to live together... I'm assuming that if everything is still good next year that he would be down for it by then. But truthfully, we've only been dating not even 4 months...so moving in together right now would probably be a dumb decision anyways.
alright, i'm off to try and sleep.
I'll post my morning weigh in. Crossing my fingers that it's still 184.8 or lower :)
<3 <3 <3
XX *crosses fingers for you*
ReplyDeleteMy boyfriend is my current thinspiration as well. I want to be the hottest bitch in the club and make everyone jealous so that he can be like "OH YEAH, that's my girl!"
Keep up the optimism! You will be down in the 70's in no time and so happy! I can't wait to hear when you make your goal!
The jeans thing seriously works..When I want to eat something bad I just think about going and buying another pair of size 12 jeans instead of size 2s and I realize it's not worth it. That's a cute pic of you guys by the way :) Your hair is gorgeouss
ReplyDeleteI like the way Veetah thinks! I'm on that track with the "Run until boys i want to date want to date me"
ReplyDeletethe 180s make me feel soooo soo sooo gross... and i'm not out of the woods yet. Right on the cusp, flipping in and out of them. Ugh. I cannot wait until I"m back home and close to my scale. :D
Don't feel weird that you love him so much already. I'm going to post my parents love story in my next post. makes me feel better about being so into someone so soon.
XOXO
Nessa